cant believe i had to do this…
I am not sure how to say this, or how to even write a general statement explaining myself; or rather apologizing for myself. It just seems that this is the correct time; I made my bed hard and I am sleeping on it. I also take full responsibility for my actions.
The person that I have been lately is not me; it’s some weird drunken version of a former self. Someone that I am trying to get back; sometimes it takes some shit to make someone understand that or at least to get yourself back on the right track.
People that know me, or have known me for a long time know that’s not me; and that’s not who I want to be. So instead of making this long and drawn out; I just have to say that I am sorry. I am really sorry and I mean it, I have let a lot of people down, pissed a lot of people off, and have created an image of myself that is entirely untrue. I know I have been somewhat irrational, but if you get down to it and ask people that have talked to me lately I am pretty rational – especially when I am not drinking (shit makes me go insane now for some reason).
You will not see me doing any of that stuff anymore, hell that’s even if you see me.
I love everyone, and I hope that those people I have pissed off – some of whom I don’t even remember can forgive me.
